The 5 foot wonder.

It’s probably pretty pathetic, but since after a while I got used to you come knocking on my door, when u’d visit me, but 4 months after our break up and I still cling on to this hope that you’ll come visit me, telling me u loved me, or at least sorry. I hear the song we declared ours that I once loved, now I can’t even listen to it for a second cuz it gives me pain. The fact that I see u out and about with people who I thought were friends and stop having contact with, cuz I found out they weren’t, u look and take everything so lightheartedly, and my logical side knows that I should’ve been treated better, and I know what I did was right, my emotions really don’t, not to the extreme of maybe the first month we broke up, but it’s brought me to tears a few times, it obviously still bothers me, I know I’m doing things to help myself move on, I just hope my emotions can catch up to, because I’m tired of feeling this way. I guess I just miss the fact that I had someone that was interested in me, and the fact that I feel alone where I live, I think it’s what has made it hard for me to let go. I think for a person like me, I don’t open myself up to many people, I fall to hard, and if in the end things don’t work out I have a harder time letting go. In a way, I wish I could meet someone new, but I know I’m just sweeping my problems under the rug doing that. I hope god can please help give me the strength to deal with this, move on and be happy and productive. To find some type of closure, so I can turn the page.