'Your journey has molded you for the greater good. It was exactly what it needed to be don't think that you've lost time. It took each and every situation you have encountered to bring you to the now, an now is right on time' - Asha Tyson
It’s probably pretty pathetic, but since after a while I got used to you come knocking on my door, when u’d visit me, but 4 months after our break up and I still cling on to this hope that you’ll come visit me, telling me u loved me, or at least sorry. I hear the song we declared ours that I once loved, now I can’t even listen to it for a second cuz it gives me pain. The fact that I see u out and about with people who I thought were friends and stop having contact with, cuz I found out they weren’t, u look and take everything so lightheartedly, and my logical side knows that I should’ve been treated better, and I know what I did was right, my emotions really don’t, not to the extreme of maybe the first month we broke up, but it’s brought me to tears a few times, it obviously still bothers me, I know I’m doing things to help myself move on, I just hope my emotions can catch up to, because I’m tired of feeling this way. I guess I just miss the fact that I had someone that was interested in me, and the fact that I feel alone where I live, I think it’s what has made it hard for me to let go. I think for a person like me, I don’t open myself up to many people, I fall to hard, and if in the end things don’t work out I have a harder time letting go. In a way, I wish I could meet someone new, but I know I’m just sweeping my problems under the rug doing that. I hope god can please help give me the strength to deal with this, move on and be happy and productive. To find some type of closure, so I can turn the page.
Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind